well another day come and gone same dream over and overs >.> but yea well had another furry in the house one of my roomates friends nice feller though i wish nto to have him around again though i do.... the person i wish to be with is telling me how cute this other person is and how they are disapointed he is taken and whatnot and i mean i try my hardest to talk with nadya but it never last more then a few mins and she is all gigling and talktive with him >.> this is why i want to leave here i moved here for her cause she told me she like ot have me out here that is the only reason i am here i evan asked again maken sure she woudl liek me here and she said yes though i feel she lied and just wanted me to be happy though not happy idk everyday i am here is torment though i do not wana leave her i feel i should i highly doubt she wants me here any more i feel i am more an inconvence then anything.... maybe i should just leave and idk i really have no where else to go i love her so much and i really don't know why it hurts every day seein her but again i like it cause well she is here heh i can;t rember the last time i woke up without tears in my eyes..... i am going to slee now evan though i don;t want to ... she is there.... sometimes i wish i will fall asleep and never wake... wishful thinken eh?